Battlescars

I faced several storms the past weeks. Work was not that good, i'm succumbed to stress and pressure. My mind was so drained and my body was out of rest. I am so helpless. I had a hard time waking up everyday. Heaviness was all over me. But guess what, I still managed to work because I had no choice. 

I reached the point of realizing that no matter how best of efforts I give to accomplish things, it will never be enough to certain people. This actually made work the most uncomfortable to deal with. All through those weeks, I wished to evaporate and not be seen by people.

Somehow, I knew I got bitterness in my heart. When I got home from work, I'll directly went to my bed to lie down and close my eyes to whisper words to God, asking Him to give me strength to face another day when tomorrow comes and to keep on holding me, most specially my heart. 

And as I woke up today, God gave me a certain word, "BATTLESCARS".

It was very painful and deep which brought me to my knees. Everything flashedback.  I got so flooded with so much sentiments of His grace. I figured out without the Lord, I wouldn't be reaching this day and suddenly, I felt strength, hope and forgiveness were all at my heart. Then, my mouth began to open and sang songs of worship to Him while I was feeling all the battlescars in my life and how God made me victorious all the way around. And with tears running down, I told Him, "God, thank You for not giving up on me".

With all my heart, I thank the Lord for every trial, for every difficulty, for every breaking that He has allowed me to go through. They're my great testimonies to tell every time. This is not to lift myself up but this is to honor the God who were with me the whole time. As what apostle Paul said,

Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.”

1 Corinthians 1:31 NIV

Thank You Lord for everything, for these BATTLESCARS! 

And to those people who left, to those who were with me, to those who chose to stay and fight with me, I am grateful for the lessons and the gift of friendship. I am not fond of naming names, but you are all in my heart. The Lord bless you and keep you all!