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Dear Mama Elvie

Hi Ma! I made a simple slideshow of our pictures together for my mother's day greeting for you. I had my account on Viva Video as VIP so it's kinda nice and presentable. :)


I don't know where to start. All I know is I need a hug from my mother and that is something so impossible to ask for. I MISS YOU SO MUCH MAMA. :( Life is never the same without you. 

Since you left, I felt that I am homeless. I have no permanent address. I have no immediate someone to turn to. And it hurts so much, mama. I never taught this pain of losing of you can be this deep. It pierced through my heart and soul and I hate this feeling. I am just making through each day because God has been so faithful in keeping and holding me all throughout these inflictive moments of my life. God knows how hard this is for me! 

I find myself uneasy most of the time. I lost the sense of security and confidence. I am tired, mama. I'm tired with my work. I'm tired of fixing things. I'm tired of adjusting to people around me. Aside from that, i'm tired of the feeling of being alone, it suffocates me! This made me unhealthy. Well, I can't tell that to people, they might not understand. Only you and God has to know. 

I am not murmuring nor ranting, I am just letting this out in my heart. But I know, I'll be okay. 

You know what mama, I have so much things and persons in my head. I still have so much positivity believing that better days are ahead of me because I still have God despite all these doomed sentiments all over me. Maybe because, you and Jesus are praying so hard out there in heaven. Thanks to you both!!! 🥰

I learned so much about forgiveness and kindness, lately. I was kind to someone who blocked me in facebook, mama. I forgave her. Please congratulate me! Hahahaha. But I know, I have to do more of these from time to time. 

I know you are so much okay, mama. You are happy with Jesus and you deserved it so much. Can someone be so fat in heaven? I'm thinking because I know you love to eat and there is so much food in there. Hahahaha. Just kidding, mom! I know you are glorious and beautiful to where you are right now. 

I wanted you to know that you are not forgotten. And in this Mother's day, I wish to be with you. You are always in my heart, mama. I miss all your nags, all your demands of time and all your fondness about me. I can't do it to myself, it sounds crazy. Hahaha! 

Happy Mother's Day, Mama Elvie. 💗 Thank you very much for always choosing me and for loving me extravagantly since day one. Thank you for all your labor and sacrifices for me. Thank you for being the best mother in the world. And thank you for letting me know and leading me to experience Jesus. This is your most priceless heritage! 


One day, people will know how strong and selfless you were in this life. They will know about our story, about our journey with Jesus Christ together, about our victory over cancer. One day, mama! Our story will glorify God and will change the lives of many. Your death and this pain that I am going through will not be put to waste because I believe the Lord our God will transform this into everyone's good. The Lord will turn this mourning into dancing. He will take off my sackcloth and clothed me with joy and this will be a powerful sounding of praise and testimony. 

Will you help me, Mama? Hmmm, I know you'll gonna poke Jesus about this. Thanks in advance!!!

I love you so much, mother! No one can ever replace you in my heart. Wherever life may take me, you are with me, everything that you taught me. While I was writing this, a flare of hope just sprung up in my heart. Wow! Thank you, Lord God! 


I'll go on with this life, Mama. Because I know you are not gone for no reason. Our purpose has to take place and everything will be worth it! 


Happy Mother's Day again. Your Junabelle loves you to the moon and back! ❤




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